Probably shouldve posted right after the exam but Im busy doin stuff... I didnt worry bout my results. I just worried before and on the actual day of the exams. A lot. After its over I just told myself not to care about my results and to not expect anything. Because my fate was sealed the moment I hand in those papers. There was nothing I can do.
Next year is the O Levels for me. A trial I must not just complete but complete with utmost excellence. For it determines my future. Lets change the topic. Something far less serious to the average humans. Cartoons. Eyeshield 21 and Pokemon. I find something very similar while watching both. In Eyeshield 21(American Football anime) all the teams went through hardcore training during the summer holidays. They gave up their summer vacations for insane training just to reach their goals. I honestly have not been watching Pokemon since Diamond and Pearl. But 1 scene captured my attention. While everyone was celebrating, the champion of the pokemon contest was training. He was training despite his victory. It got me thinking. Its not whether you are able or unable to do it. Its whether you want it so badly that you'll shit diarrhea and still run for first place. It wont matter to you if you continue shitting while running. And if a mass lump of shit blocks your path, you'll dig that brown mess up until you reach your goal. No amount of shit can stop you. Thats called determination. Of course most people would just be disgusted and stop. Lets be honest, confronting shit is pretty nerve-wrecking.
Am I going to overcome that shit? No answer to that. But am I going to try my best? Hell yeah. Im giving myself no excuses. No more "maybes". Its either a yes or a no. I will however spend some time doing other things. But for the rest of the time, I'll study and practice. I hope when the time comes, Ill be the ideal me.
Until then,
PEACE
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