Happy happy fun fun?

Probably shouldve posted right after the exam but Im busy doin stuff... I didnt worry bout my results. I just worried before and on the actual day of the exams. A lot. After its over I just told myself not to care about my results and to not expect anything. Because my fate was sealed the moment I hand in those papers. There was nothing I can do.

Next year is the O Levels for me. A trial I must not just complete but complete with utmost excellence. For it determines my future. Lets change the topic. Something far less serious to the average humans. Cartoons. Eyeshield 21 and Pokemon. I find something very similar while watching both. In Eyeshield 21(American Football anime) all the teams went through hardcore training during the summer holidays. They gave up their summer vacations for insane training just to reach their goals. I honestly have not been watching Pokemon since Diamond and Pearl. But 1 scene captured my attention. While everyone was celebrating, the champion of the pokemon contest was training. He was training despite his victory. It got me thinking. Its not whether you are able or unable to do it. Its whether you want it so badly that you'll shit diarrhea and still run for first place. It wont matter to you if you continue shitting while running.  And if a mass lump of shit blocks your path, you'll dig that brown mess up until you reach your goal. No amount of shit can stop you. Thats called determination. Of course most people would just be disgusted and stop. Lets be honest, confronting shit is pretty nerve-wrecking.

Am I going to overcome that shit? No answer to that. But am I going to try my best? Hell yeah. Im giving myself no excuses. No more "maybes". Its either a yes or a no. I will however spend some time doing other things. But for the rest of the time, I'll study and practice. I hope when the time comes, Ill be the ideal me.

Until then,
PEACE

The Past and Present

Its  11:30pm now... Im waiting for "How I Met Your Mother" on channel 5... And ive been studyin a lot.... So I guess its okay to write a post. Lets get started.

Humans tend to take things for granted. We usually treasure the past if the present is not as good. So many things have changed these few years. Luckily, I treasure what I had last time for I miss those days... The relationship I had with you were special.
 But what happened? You are not what you use to be. You changed. But you still are special. At least in my memories. Coz you were you and history cannot be changed. I want it to be like those days. Those days that you were special and treat me like Im special too. You are special. Until I forget you. And you'll only be a figment of the past. And only that memory will remain special. For you are not yourself. You are no longer here. At least not to me. And maybe Ill regret the present. But Ill never regret the past. Nor will I hope that the present will be like the past even when Id like it to be. You were special. Just not special enough. Coz to you, Im not special enough either.

Just to be clear the "you" is subjective but since there are so many "you"s to me, I figured its better to leave it at that to make it more personal for everyone. Juz hope that you peepz understand what "relationship" means. Dont just think of BGR... stuff like friendship counts as well... Im goin back to ma studies.

PEACE

Examinations are funny?

It puzzles me. The exams have already started and people are still acting like they'll do well for it. They only keep quiet for certain subjects. Subjects they like. Subjects where the teachers are strict. I just dont understand why these people cant be bothered at all. Talk and laugh. Whats so important to talk and laugh about??? Of course I dont understand what theyre talkin about coz most of them are speakin foreign language to me but I assume they're talking about their own impending doom. Laughing at their own demise. Then laugh at their own results when they get them. Coz the whole paper is a joke and the marks given are for humor. And ten years down the road theyll look at that same paper(but i doubt theyll keep it) and say "Memories.. *sigh*"... MEMORIES MY ASS!!! It only shows how much of time they've wasted... and mine as well coz teachers have to stall the lesson to ask these douchebags to shut the eff up... biatches... the students not the teachers...

PEACE(to non-biatches)